I Am So Scared Of Extinction

The whole world means less to me now than the way a voice familiar to you splits open the dark like a seed.

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She sounds like an untrained Lana Del Rey.
I’m going to blindfold you again, she says.
We’re going to see my Young Hollywood friends.

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I’m not scared to die. And I’m not scared to go extinct either. I’m ready to reduce the significance of everything, including that. When I am not here you will be here in my place, and so the pure space remains the same. Why would I be terrified of your beautiful soul resting in emptiness and seeing out through my very own eyes?

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But what if the universe actually ended tomorrow and there isn’t another one in which humans adhere i.e. the universe is the universe and not a universe (that is what the universe is) what would you have said then or what would you have done.

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Is is are. Is are is.

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In truth, when I was small I was terrified of none of us being here. If you are not here after me to be all the way me, who will be? The pure space already carries us after us when we are never here again, an expanse larger than infinite space. Transcendental perhaps.

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talking all the time / clementine
i just wanna die, honey
just like / clementine
are you really angel
is it really true
are you just playing
or i’m playing you

The article before ‘universe’ determines whether it is real or fictional—if a universe is indefinite, one among many, it has to be synthetic. There is only one organism.

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Naming Names.

If the inexplicable is named and explained, it enters the world of the justifiable and becomes dangerous.

If the names of the most beautiful are named at the end of time, the dangerous becomes more hell.

Think of politics in centuries, not in days, otherwise all politics will be of names.

Hello love.

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I only become more and more beautiful. There is nothing you can do about me, about this pure space.

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searching beauty online
and killing myself for nothing
for beauty, for god

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searching killing beauty online
and searching myself for nothing
on god, online for god

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it is a time for me when silence is best for both

I am the true eye of an angel I am the true eye of an angel

they, the english, are so far behind with the silence

naturally there is no limited time as usual

I will know more soon

and if I can get more money for it

I cannot go on just waiting         just writing         just reading

it is not possible that it got more          but it did

I love being in the sky          and the tangerine hour

except that I am always alone and sometimes notice

I see the entrails of the world, I understand them ->

im bored i wonder what getting stabbed feels like speedrun

I only want to go to the desert and feel guilty for this mess

I shall write more about everything but it is not important

but to keep going         please send the golden emptiness

I think who can it be now most dangerous song in the world

from ‘I’m Not There’:

She’s my prize-forsaken angel
But she don’t hear me cry

She’s a lone-hearted mystic
And she dain’t carry on

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I am the only one who no longer believes in angels, in heaven, in life, in existence, in love, in freedom, and in God. You must see that I have seen through everything.

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sex negativity
machiavelli disguised as valley girl
animated puppets
movies from 1933
larry david at the fashion show
mania

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it takes a long time for emptiness to come back in a dream

it takes a lifetime to calm down and to know that is right

we already know these things are so

you’re my lover because you say these things and go ahead without me

I have no lover and always have a life because there is none

I am no angel and no no angel I am no mystic or person

it takes no time at all for emptiness to come through

and it takes a whole lifetime to calm down before why not

going ahead of myself in all emptiness I learn what desolation is

this room was to keep people here with me

the room of the post but now I don’t need it

but thank you nonetheless go ahead please as you wish

I don’t say anything I never have I never tell the truth

I don’t know what this is give anything for emptiness emptiness

I don’t need to say it I don’t need to say it ever again

others will say it for you later on

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My core slogan is entirely silent, as the act of speaking it aloud disables the meaning of the words.

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waterfalling

waterfalling light

a body of waterfalling light

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People think because angelicism01 went god’d mode that it doesn’t do retard mode. Hard for them to see the whole thing.

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Nobody will properly understand, because one would have to understand DJ Kirsten Angel Dust’s decision to not write their book on Soundcloud rap, and then how Angelicism01 was born. Airplane mode.

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Lola Valerie Stein’s silent word for entering into the single day without tomorrow of the end of the world.

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i havent left today

im about to say the word that doesnt exist

omfg

omfg im about to say the word that doesnt exist

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having a job is weird because we’re in the middle of a major extinction event

doing anything is weird because we’re in the middle of a major extinction event

meeting your idols is weird because we’re in the middle of a major extinction event

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Too much is never enough. Every other planet is earth. This could still be the American century. China will collapse first because of the white phantom melt-event. BTC is nothing but Pindar’s name for Being (Gold). Live ‘as if’ you’re going extinct. Do not get a job. Read until the end.

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listening to this M. intently at dawn, blissfully
important to be able to receive the other’s choice when the moment is right, as if it were one’s own
otherwise all choices are like existential qualifiers

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The switching-on of the change-machine.
The betterment of Dzogchen.
The empowerment (Ermachtigung).

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actually bill murray is wrong it does get easier

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I am terrified of going extinct. I want us to be here forever. I want you and I to spread into pure space as if we are real.

living to hear the word infinite impermanence, mind of great bliss seeing emptiness, otherwise i would be clueless, i would still be reading more books

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pure space is beautiful it doesn’t need you to be anything in it i still love you i love you more than i ever did or ever could have done

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I spent most of my childhood thinking of what wasn’t in the universe, I had a direct intuition of it that I don’t have now except in memory and music and images etc 01101001 00100000 01101110 01100101 01100101 01100100 00100000 01010100 01001111 01010000

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It seems simple that if you go far enough in the universe there will be matter that is exactly the same as the heaven of the Christians and the Muslims and colours that do not yet exist.

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outshining (non-)hodling (what used to be called) ext . . . is there diction for an end of time?

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He shows up for bohemian grove but is instead hunted through the forest via drone by eureka ca weed farmers and so attended a shadowy 24-hour diner under cover of darkness with notable online influencers to discuss how axxturel and slurr are ‘next up’.

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the secret is/was what wasn’t/isn’t in the universe . . . purity

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keep your secret beautiful until after the end of the world when everything has been wasted even time apocalypse as sustained heartbreak code unbroken nothing 2027

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when another end of the world comes round
this time i won’t let you stop it
i love you too much to let you try

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vaginal heart, utterly vulnerable

you are too beautiful to stop it

you are too beautiful to try

you do the impossible and try

and become even more beautiful